Is it the kind that you LIVE out everyday? Or do you claim to have FAITH, but never really show it in your actions?
Funny how all last week I had been thinking about my faith and how much I rely and depend on God to take care of everything for me. Then today, our pastor speaks on Faith.
I have been keeping account of several of the things that have happened in my life, since really learning to depend on God, and it's really amazing what a testimony it is. I remember a time when I would have had a meltdown if I were to lose my job or for some unexpected crazy bill to come in that I didn't have the money for. But, over the last several years I have come to the realization that I truly do not have any REAL control over anything that occurs in my life. . . only the way I choose to respond to it. That is where my wonderful husband has helped me. He has shown me how to REALLY trust in God and not to "worry" or "stress" over things.
Our life together has been like one of those bad comic books where the good guy always has something happen to him. Of course, we laugh it off. . . what else are you gonna do? Cry about it? Seriously though, every time we turn around it is some major catastrophe, usually when it comes to health or finances. For example, we got a few unexpected hospital bills that the insurance did not cover, we thought we could take care of it when we refinance the house. . . but the house appraised for less than we expected. Then, dear hubby needed brakes on his truck. . . only trouble is, it ended up needing two new rotors, too. . . $950. . . I need my van inspected and it needs four new tires, breaks, and an alignment. And you know that is not going to be cheap. Life is just crazy here. Any way, you get the point. . . and that all happened within 3 days. Yeah, you see what I mean? So, instead of freaking out and wondering how it's all going to work, I look to Him to show me what we are to do about each thing that occurs and HOW he wants us to handle it. Now, sometimes, I have apparently not done exactly what God wanted me to do, and he has gently reminded me. However, I have found that if I do something in error and that I truly believed I was doing what He wanted me to, then He is a loving and forgiving God! Good thing too! Heaven knows I've made my share of mistakes!
Sometimes, I look to heaven and ask Him. . . "How much longer, Lord?!" And, I know that it is a mute point, because it's gonna happen when He is good and ready. Thankfully, I have my FAITH in Him and all that He has planned for me. Christ is my SOLID ROCK that I stand on. . . all other ground is sinking sand! I've LIVED it, not just talked about it. I have prayed and said "Lord, you are just gonna have to take care of this, because I cannot do it on my own." And within literally HOURS, seen him lay something in my lap and it is the answer to my prayer. We have prayed for others and seen Him answer those prayers. . . prayers of healing, prayers of comfort. God is SOOOOO good!
I have become so dependant on God to show me what it is that he wants me to do with everything that occurs in my life, that I sometimes find myself becoming impatient with loved ones that claim to have strong faith, yet do not live it the way we do. <<
I am not saying that it is easy. If anything, He tests me at times and I find myself wanting to scream out "enough already". But, then I remember how much He loves me and all of the wonderful things that He has planned for me that I do not even know about yet. . . and it makes it all worth while!